This autoethnographic story explores the competitive, calculating, and often uncaring world of performance football coaching. Particular attention is given to the dilemmas I (the first author) faced, the choices I made, and the consequences of my actions within the coaching context. Bauman's work on liquid relationships is suggested as a lens through which my story can be viewed. By highlighting its political and emotional nature, this article seeks to contribute to an evolving problematic epistemology of sports coaching; one that seeks to extend beyond continuing rationalistic and ‘heroic’ accounts of practice.
Potrac, P., Jones, R. L., Gilbourne, D., & Nelson, L. (2012). ‘Handshakes, BBQs, and bullets’: self-interest, shame and regret in football coaching. Sports Coaching Review, 1(2), 79-92. https://doi.org/10.1080/21640629.2013.768418